Kellifer_fic - "Hurl'd Headlong"

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"Hurl'd Headlong"	[Sep. 24th, 2008\|08:26 pm]
Title: Hurl'd Headlong Category: Gen - coda for episode 4.01 Rating: PG (Language) Fandom: SPN By: kellifer_fic Spoilers: 4.01 Words: 595 Disclaimer: Written for entertainment purposes only. No money, no sue. Dean is watching Sam talk to the motel manager, who is eyeing his brother like he's a little freaked out by Sam switching teams mid way through an inning. The motel is hysterical and Dean's not sure what was in Sam's head when he picked it. Actually, he's pretty sure that Sam was thinking with the little head and not the big one when he did, if the girl who'd answered the door was anything to go by. So, his mind is wandering and he glances down at their shadows for a second, stretched thin because of the dying light of the day. His shadow has a long sword in its right hand and Sam's shadow is holding a sickle. They're two dimensional and pulled out of true by the angle but Dean could almost swear that the two shadows are looking at each other. He takes a deep breath, closes his eyes for the count of three and when he opens them again the light has failed enough that his shadow is just a blur on the concrete, not holding anything. * I know everything about that kid Dean really wishes that were still true, but he's starting to have doubts. * He's in the line at the local supermarket because no way is he washing his hair with Sam's girly shit when the hand-print brand on his shoulder starts itching. He rolls his t-shirt sleeve up without thinking about it but it looks the same. A girl in line behind him with an impressive amount of tatts and enough facial piercings to make Dean wonder vaguely how she eats lets out a breath of appreciation. "Where'd you get that done?" she asks, eyes round and hungry. "Dunno," Dean says. "Somewhere between hell and back I guess." * Bobby stares at Dean when he thinks Dean isn't paying attention. Dean's perfected the not-notice-the-stare from long years on the road with Sam but something about Bobby doing it itches at him. "Now you're not really sure about either of us, are you?" Dean asks without acknowledging Bobby's gaze. Bobby stops staring and it isn't the relief Dean wishes it would be. * Sam always, always seems to find pressing things to talk to Dean about when he's in the shower. He'll yell above the pounding spray about the latest case or his new sneakers or some flower he stopped to smell. Usually the more inane the better and the more determined Sam is to interrupt Dean's alone time with it. The silence makes Dean realise that he's gotten used to a lot of things that he thought bugged him about Sam, and that more importantly, he misses them. "Sam?" he calls, poking his head out from behind the stained curtain. "Yeah?" Sam calls back. "Nothin'. Just checking," Dean sighs. * Sam's passing him in the doorway when Dean reaches out and wraps both arms around him. The almost-hug is awkward because of the angle and Sam is side-on but Dean finds it's hard to let go. "Uh, Dean?" Sam starts but Dean is too busy pressing his forehead into Sam's shoulder and trying not to cry. He doesn't remember much but he knows for the entire time he was... away he would most certainly have been sure that Sam was dead. "You're not allowed to ever mention this or use it as fodder in a fight," Dean instructs, face still mashed against Sam's shirtsleeve. Dean can feel Sam's nose press into the top of his head for the briefest of moments. "Wouldn't dream of it."
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oxoniensis
2008-09-24 11:12 am (UTC)

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Lovely, these little moments that are so simple on the surface but say so much. And the perfect second hug! I just can't get enough of the hugs.

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saberivojo
2008-09-24 11:19 am (UTC)

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You can feel the uncertainty, the tentativeness and then there is the hug. Ahh, that feels right.

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miconic
2008-09-24 11:40 am (UTC)

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They must have missed each other hard. If it didn't hit them now, it would eventually at awkward times. Like this. Thanks for the cool what-ifs. Oh, these boys.

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estei
2008-09-24 12:07 pm (UTC)

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Baby, I heart you so much right now.

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zillah975
2008-09-24 12:12 pm (UTC)

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It's the little stuff that gets us more than the big things, and this is a great illustration of that, beautifully written and achy. Thank you for posting it.

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azraelz_angel
2008-09-24 12:23 pm (UTC)

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This was fantastic - as always. Great little snippets. I particularly love the first one, with the shadows staring one another down.

Oh boys, this season is going to hurt a lot!

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teand
2008-09-24 12:36 pm (UTC)

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Love the shadows! If the show doesn't actually do that, they're missing some amazing visuals. You should send Kripke a memo.

"Now you're not really sure about either of us, are you?" Dean asks without acknowledging Bobby's gaze.

In many ways this is the saddest line in a sweetly melancholy fic.

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mtee
2008-09-24 01:58 pm (UTC)

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I completely agree -- the thought that Bobby doesn't completely trust them is so sad!

Great fic -- you really captured the distance, the hesitancy you felt watching the show. The brothers were so happy/relieved maybe? to see each other -- but their future exchanges were stilted. Actually the only time they were natural was around Pamela - the ease was back as they bantered about her. Other than that -- everything was awkward.

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starrylizard
2008-09-24 12:37 pm (UTC)

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lovely little moments. :)

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st0psmackinme07
2008-09-24 12:47 pm (UTC)

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aww! absolutely lovely! :D

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catdancerz
2008-09-24 12:56 pm (UTC)

dean trying not to cry...

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and the sword and the sickle...

oh my...

beautiful writing, and painful...

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iamstealthyone
2008-09-24 01:04 pm (UTC)

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Nicely done. I like that there's so much tension right now as everyone tries to figure out where they fit with each other, and whether things -- people -- have changed in damaging ways.

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art_savage
2008-09-24 01:54 pm (UTC)

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Man, this was good stuff. The scene with Bobby - and then that hug at the end - those two just destroyed me. Beautiful.

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tsuki_no_bara
2008-09-24 02:40 pm (UTC)

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the bit with the shadows is creepy. and i really like how awkward they are around each other - or at least how awkward dean is - and how things that should feel right are just a little bit off.

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may7fic
2008-09-24 02:45 pm (UTC)

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What powerful little glimpses of post-Hell boys you've given us here! Each of them gorgeous and loaded with richness and depth, despite still being just fleeting moments. Lovely!

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deirdre_c
2008-09-24 02:56 pm (UTC)

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Yup. Works for me. *adores*

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tabaqui
2008-09-24 03:35 pm (UTC)

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Oh, Dean. And...the shadows, and Bobby, and hugging....
*sniffle*

:)

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ultraviolet9a
2008-09-24 03:51 pm (UTC)

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Things that stood out: the shadows with sword and sickle and how Bobby is unsure of both now. So well done.

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patita_fea
2008-09-24 04:43 pm (UTC)

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*hugs self, smiles, and chokes up*

Show doesn't really have time to show us little moments like these. Thanks very much for filling in the gaps with such care, detail, and reality.

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ryo_girl
2008-09-24 04:49 pm (UTC)

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Awww, boys.

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embroiderama
2008-09-24 05:16 pm (UTC)

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LOVE! This is wonderful. The hug just kills me, but I also love the interplay between Dean and the bodmod girl.

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arliss
2008-09-24 06:27 pm (UTC)

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Oh my, the sword and the sickle. Portentous.

And the ambush hug--makes the tears prickle, just a bit. It's the small things that do ambush us, just when we think we've got our equilibrium back.

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blueocean80
2008-09-24 10:01 pm (UTC)

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oh so good! YOU are so good!

The shadows, the shower talk and the hug. Oh the hug! *clutches heart* Oh boys!

Thank you!

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redrikki
2008-09-24 10:08 pm (UTC)

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Nice use of details here. I especially like the shower scene, both because we've actually seen attempts at shower conversations in canon and because it's a nice touch. Plus, Dean in a shower. ::Stares into space and drools::

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ewanspotter
2008-09-24 10:22 pm (UTC)

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Oh, boys. So incredibly sad... but lovely.

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meret
2008-09-24 10:22 pm (UTC)

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Awww! So sweet. Lovely! :)

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rinkle
2008-09-24 10:56 pm (UTC)

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"Now you're not really sure about either of us, are you?" Dean asks without acknowledging Bobby's gaze.

Bobby stops staring and it isn't the relief Dean wishes it would be.

You just broke my heart.

*whimpers*

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starpixie16
2008-09-24 11:18 pm (UTC)

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A perfect collection of scenes, truly lovely from start to finish. I really enjoyed the balance of angst and humor throughout.

He'll yell above the pounding spray about the latest case or his new sneakers or some flower he stopped to smell.

Loved that line! *lol*

...but Dean is too busy pressing his forehead into Sam's shoulder and trying not to cry.

This was an absolutely beautiful but heartbreaking moment. Oh, Dean ...

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gayeld
2008-09-25 12:24 pm (UTC)

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Sam always, always seems to find pressing things to talk to Dean about when he's in the shower.

Oh Sammy. And Dean calling out to check on him when Sam doesn't do this, and the hug. Boys!

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sarah_p
2008-09-27 12:49 am (UTC)

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Hi! I just wanted to let you know that you've been recced over here at

spn_themes. Yay! :)

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musesfool
2008-09-27 01:27 am (UTC)

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Oh, boys...

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firstgold
2008-09-27 02:40 am (UTC)

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This was gorgeous. I loved the looks at little moments, and I think you've done a great job of capturing Dean and Sam.

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vesuvianite
2008-09-28 04:16 am (UTC)

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This is a great addition to the 4.01 codas. So thanks for sharing it.

Loved this line: "Dunno," Dean says. "Somewhere between hell and back I guess."

That is just too damn clever. *g*

Also loved the "Sam always finds something to talk to Dean about in the shower" segment. Very imaginative, and fits in well with the characters, as we've come to know them in the show.

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layne67
2008-09-29 11:10 pm (UTC)

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He'll yell above the pounding spray about -- some flower he stopped to smell

LOL that's a good one :D

And Dean trying not to cry makes me want to cry.

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